2 weeks of silence

but for good reasons for a change. no burglaries, nothing like that...

so, left my job - well, one of them at first. plan was to just keep doing after school program and actually have time to do studies - you know, the reason i'm working this year, so i can study part time. good move as profs are losing faith in me.

after telling them i was leaving (2 weeks notice) i got a random call from a job agency i applied with at the beginning of the year - the one that tested me, told me i was wonderful, could type and think at remarkable speeds, but couldn't get me a job. sigh. they had an interview for me tho! so didn't think i'd take it, even if i was offered it, but went to interview anyway.

much better pay, 28 hours a week, so a step up from after school clubs (Tho perhaps not as fun). and it sounds fun, tho challenging, and a bit crazy. so perfect! and more time than i'm used to for study, so heaps! (by comparison)

start there in a couple of weeks, so just finishing up one job, looking forward to another... life plods on. only it's been less blah lately. people make all the difference i have discovered. i think i isolate myself somehow but i need people. i sat down for some time out a couple of weeks ago and wrote down what i wanted and needed - what i'd like to see happen in my spiritual life, and in a couple of important friendships. feel much more focussed, though little has really changed there. but eversince, i've been growing closer to people - one of the two i focussed on during my time out - and a couple of others.

work and study and all that jazz are important but they're not the point. i probably couldn't keep doing any of that jazz without people around me to love and be loved by. fluffy, i know, very hallmark but there you go. so if you're one of those people,

thank you

i need you.

it's late, tho that's probably obvious in how uninhibited this is. i'm watching gray's anatomy after navs so i'm past it in pretty much every way. and now i'm going to bed. confession over.

freedom